I have awaken to an absolutely beautiful autumn day. I should feel excited and alive. I should feel ready to take on the day, but I don't. I feel tired today. There is so many things to do. I just feel lost.
I am trying to figure out where God wants me to be. What does He want me to do? I know He has a plan for me. I have never really had trouble figuring out what that is, but I do now.
I am 39 years old. I am reminding myself, I am blessed beyond belief. I have an incredibly awesome husband and two very special boys. I am laying on my favorite chair (and a half) looking around my no so perfect house that is home. God has given me so much. I have rich memories of wonderful friends that I love dearly. I was blessed with very loving and giving parents. Life is really, really good. I feel lost.
"Lord, what do you want from me now?" I have listened and obeyed when you told me to slow down my business. I have listened when you said get your priorities straight. Spend more time with your family. Teach those precious girls My Word! I know there is so much more out there.
I am 39 years old and I am bored with my life. I can't seem to focus. I am restless. I am tired of folding clothes. I am tired of running the dishwasher. I am tired of going about each day in search of something.
God, please show me the path from here..............help me to listen.......... open my heart to You!
