I have awaken to an absolutely beautiful autumn day. I should feel excited and alive. I should feel ready to take on the day, but I don't. I feel tired today. There is so many things to do. I just feel lost.
I am trying to figure out where God wants me to be. What does He want me to do? I know He has a plan for me. I have never really had trouble figuring out what that is, but I do now.
I am 39 years old. I am reminding myself, I am blessed beyond belief. I have an incredibly awesome husband and two very special boys. I am laying on my favorite chair (and a half) looking around my no so perfect house that is home. God has given me so much. I have rich memories of wonderful friends that I love dearly. I was blessed with very loving and giving parents. Life is really, really good. I feel lost.
"Lord, what do you want from me now?" I have listened and obeyed when you told me to slow down my business. I have listened when you said get your priorities straight. Spend more time with your family. Teach those precious girls My Word! I know there is so much more out there.
I am 39 years old and I am bored with my life. I can't seem to focus. I am restless. I am tired of folding clothes. I am tired of running the dishwasher. I am tired of going about each day in search of something.
God, please show me the path from here..............help me to listen.......... open my heart to You!
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Peg
Peg,
I went through a time when I was just totally burned out on all of mundane tasks that comprised my day. I asked the Lord to help me find joy in them and one day as I folded a faded dish towel I suddenly had this sense of accomplishment, of appreciation for how neat it looked and how blessed I was and I KNEW that had to be God. That was a while back and I still have days when I'm tired of the routine, the mindless, but unending tasks.
I'm trying to incorporate things into our schedule that make us all happy--like reading a good book a loud, making something together, etc. Without those sweeter moments I feel like I'm dying inside.
Father,
I don't know what it is that you have for Peg. I lift her up to you today and ask that you would reveal Yourself to her. Bring a new life, passion, and joy into her days. She knows you have blessed her beyond measure. She has a heart of gratitude, but there is also an emptiness that only You know how to fill. Give her yourself. Guide her into all You have for her. Bring a new fullness into her day and lift her face and shine Your light and beauty upon it.
In Jesus' name
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