Tuesday coming home from my morning run I heard a familiar song on KLove.
The song is titled "Held" by Natalie Grant. You can listen to a portion of the song there. I have heard the song several times buy never could quite catch all the lyrics. I ran up the stairs to my apartment and immediately purchased the song and printed out the words. I have posted the words below for you to read.
The song(I am told) is about a mother who lost her child in her arms and two weeks later loses her husband. All day I listened to the song and meditated on the words. I thought about the tradgedies I have encountered in my lifetime. Thankfully, God has spared me from immediate personal tradgedy but I have friends that have experienced it first hand. These experiences have deeply affected my life.
Many years ago a friend of mine from my church in Amarillo lost her husband and three sons in a tragic boating accident. This incident still haunts me today. I still cannot imagine losing your whole family in the blink of an eye. It is incomprehensible. God obviously carried her through. How else could anyone heal from that experience?
Kevin and I had a very special friend named "Tuesday". She passed away in 1995 unexpectedly. She had a heart problem and died in her sleep pregnant with her third child. The last time I saw her was in our OBGyn office. We were both there for check-ups. I was pregnant with L at the time. Her child passed as well. We run into her husband and two children periodically. Life moves on...
The night before last after a day of listening to "Held" I slept very heavy and had one of those very emotionally charged dreams. I dreamt of car accidents, death, grieving, and celebrating life. It was so powerful it jolted me awake around 3am. I laid in bed trying to recap the myriad of events and details and the song played over and over in my head. It took me about 45 minutes to go back to sleep. When I awoke yesterday morning I was exhausted.
I don't fully understand why God allows tradgedy to take place in our lives. I do know that God has taught me some valuable life lessons from the unfortunate events that I mention. I can't even begin to understand what it feels like to personally experience it. I can't imagine how my friend Helen and Tuesday's families lives were changed after those tragic days. Somehow I know the only way they survived was because they were "held" by God's unfailing powerful love, peace, and strength. And I hope they felt His wise "hand open slowly to the lillies of the valley and tomorrow".
I know in the small tradgedies and minute trials in my life I have definitely felt "held". And in everyday life, for that matter. Praise God!
Wow - what a song!
7 comments:
I don't know how people make it either--I just have to trust that whatever God gives me--He will be with me through it--and He is wise and loving enough to never give me too much--even when I DO think it's too much.
BTW, that is a great song!
JB
When I have been through painful circumstances, I have found myself clinging to God because I have no other choice. What else is there to provide any hope? I feel like Job when he said, "Though he slay me, yet will I trust him," because I would have even less hope without him. And each time he has held me and carried me through.
Thanks for bringing that song to our attention. I have heard it, but now it brings new meaning.
How do you run in this heat?! I usually start back up when school starts. I run them to school while they ride their bikes. Running is so releasing to me!
Hey tmk - I just can't run in the heat! The latest I can go is 8:30am or later in the evening but I try earlier. I am glad to have found a fellow runner! It's addicting!
I had not heard that song until I read you today. Beautiful! Thank you.
I've heard that song several times, but only paid attention to the chorus - until you posted the lyrics here. It's a truly beautiful song. It does shed new light on its meaning. One time I can clearly remember being "held" was when I was going through problems in my pregnancy with Jacob. There were a few times we thought we were going to lose him, and somehow I always felt strangely comforted. I knew it was God. Jacob was born at term a big, healthy 8 lb.-8 oz. bruiser!
Ashley
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That is truly an awesome song!
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